Reply #55: I was very concerned about him going into the Hospice at first...

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I felt it was like a first step at getting him away from the people who could get well, or admitting that he will never be better.
After speaking with a few people, they made me realize that he would get excellent care and attention at a facility such as this.
Maybe it was part of my own denial at the fact he was terminal. I never thought I would see the day. I thought he would outlast ME!
I am grateful that I was able to tell him I loved him, so at least the last conversation we had was not about mundane issues.
He did say, "same here" when I told him I loved him, and that is the closest thing he has ever said to "I love you".
I will cherish that forever. He was never a demonstrative person.

I can recall when his father passed away and I felt him touch my foot as I was in bed going to sleep.
I was only 6 years old and I knew it was Opa telling me goodbye.
I walked out to the living room and told my Dad that Opa (german for grandfather) just died. He became alittle angry at me. We found out the next day he had passed away during the night. Nothing more was said on the issue.

I just want to thank you all for being here and listening during this trying time in my life. Since I live alone, I have no sounding board and I don't want to keep this bottled up.
I read all of your posts and mourn along with the rest of you. It certainly is tough losing a loved one.
Thank you all for caring, and do cherish your loved ones.