Reply #32: Hi Everyone

[Nite Owl]

It's so nice we have a place to meet. Thanks GreenPartyVoter for thinking of this group.

I lost my husband almost 10yrs ago. Coming up on the anniversary in a couple of weeks. We were best friends, lovers the whole thing. If were had been abandoned on an island we wouldn't have minded as long as we were together. He died of a sudden heart attack. Had been for a physical just a few weeks before and everything was fine. One minute he was there and then he was gone. This whole Shiavo case is making it all worse right now. I know he would never have wanted to live a life where he could no longer think or speak and it would have been so selfish to try and keep him. I was left with two young boys to bring up. I don't know if I did a good job or not but they are fine young men today and I know that their dad would be so proud of them. I'm so glad they are here and we have muddled though our loss together giving each other strength and support.

It's been so long now it seems but the grief doesn't ever really end. You learn to cope better, to go on with life in a different way but it doesn't ever just stop being there. A part of myself left this world we know that night and our family was changed forever. I have friends who have been divorced and they have told me that they would rather be in my place. I had that elusive love, that relationship that so many just are not lucky enough to ever experience but that doesn't really help when all you want is to be back in time even if it would be for just a few brief moments.

Rosemary