Reply #25: I know what you mean . . .

[DollyM]

I have found that the little things people complain about, the lines in the stores and whether to have turkey or ham, just irritate the hell out of me. I keep wanting to shake someone and scream "at least you have someone to feed your turkey or ham for or buy a Christmas present for!" I couldn't even bring myself to put up a Christmas tree, I ignored Christmas and then suddenly, on December 31st, I felt like putting up the Christmas tree, so I did. It is still sitting in the entry way, decorated and with the lights shining. In some weird sort of way, I think I will keep up the tree until Kevan can come home and see it. Yes, I know that isn't going to happen but in a way it makes me feel a little better. It is something tangible I can do for him. So in July, if someone comes to my door and sees a Christmas tree still lit up in my house, I hope they understand that yes, I have gone a bit insane and fully have the right to do so! About the cat, we lost our cat, our sons's cat that we bought as a gift for him for his third birthday, the evening before he died. She was almost 17 and I knew she wasn't going to live much longer but I thought it was amazing that she waited until it was time for him to pass from this life too. I believe they crossed over the rainbow bridge together . . . but that is a story for another time.
Just wanted to say, I think about you also and have those same thoughts. It's okay, we are broken people right now and without our sons and our lives have been changed forever. I just try to take life one minute at a time now and hold onto Kevan's spirit and memory in my heart.