Reply #21: And the final explanation of all this:

[Random_Australian]

Here is me sometime later!

1) I don't particularly care what the name is of what is wrong with me.

2) You see here me experimenting with emotions as part of an attempt to keep systems in control (the systems themselves are things that give me emotions, I have had extreme difficulty in feeling anything).

3) Experiment showed emotions are too unstable for me to use as motivation. I chose instead certain set boundaries enclosed by something that induces stress until behaviour is once again inside those boundaries.

4) I'm still having problems with feeling emotions. Well, I can feel them now. It took me more effort than I would care to admit, but I can.

5) The lack of emotions was why I feared sociopathy. :( It makes doing so many of the things they talk about so EASY. They're right there. I can get so much stuff if I just manipulate a little - but I won't. I won't. Musn't allow oneself. Musn't. As you can see, this stress thing works pretty well!

6) So that problem set is over. The one I am working on now is reacting properly to these emotions. The other day I was eating, and almost choked myself from not thinking about what I was doing, and not reacting to the pain and feelings of illness (from eating too much). I'm working on it. The problem seems to be that since I have done so many test-runs on emotions, I have become accustomed to them not having any real world significance. :(