Reply #20: No, you're not wrong.

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I had a friend who was a fragile diabetic who didn't take care of himself because he really believed he was immortal and/or invincible (I almost typed "immoral" there; he was that, too, but in a good way) until the troubles started. He didn't get out of his 40s, and that's a real loss to me. The last time I saw him, he had a dialysis tube sticking out of his chest, continence pants on, and he smelled like death. It broke my heart, and yeah, I was angry that he hadn't taken his health seriously.

You may want to read up on grief stages, because in many cases anger is a very normal response. The stages don't necessarily pass evenly, either. You can go from being in denial to being angry to being just plain sad, then suddenly back to denial again, then back to sad. It's a very complex issue, and I wish you good luck in dealing with it. Sorry to hear of your loss...