Reply #16: wow.

[idgiehkt]

I am glad you don't remember. It's most likely for the best.

I have alot of memories I don't remember. I've been told about scarring that I don't remember, can't fathom, etc. I think it's the minds way of protecting us, you know. Kids just compartmentalize. I think in the end it can to harm though. On a total digression, it has in my life, hence my 'being trapped' phobia. That's what it's about, at heart. In my mind it got transferred from the physical feeling of being trapped, restrained, whatever, onto relationships, jobs, degrees, anything like that. The minute I start moving toward something actually coming to fruition or stability or completion...kaboom, kablooey. I really should have gotten work in a field that uses explosives, I am so good at this by now. But now I've really trapped myself... I don't know what I am going to do