Reply #89: Thanks NSMA!

[diamondsoul]

*blushing bright crimson*

I'm just me, and I know I'm nowhere near perfect. I suppose there are just some things I know are plain wrong and I draw the line there for myself and my kids.

I was really pissed at myself for even considering typing that word into the post. That's why it was so coincidental for me to wander over here and see this thread. Kind of an affirmation that I caught my own shortcoming before I hurt someone, however unintentional it might have been.

I'm cranky as hell at the moment, but knowing I'm not the only one who gets disgusted by people, and even my own flaws, helps.

I also thought of my Step-mom who had such trouble controlling her weight she resorted to the stomach stapling a year ago. She's a large-framed woman so she really wasn't vastly over her ideal weight but she suffered chest pains a lot and it scared the hell out of her. (my personal take is she just ran herself ragged no matter her weight! She was about 4 times my size and about 10 times more active than me! LOL)

Point is, she isn't "fat" by choice and she definitely isn't "ugly" to look at. She happens to have a larger frame than most women our age (and yes we're just a year apart in age.), and because of that she's not seen as the perfect little centerfold woman. My response is people are not all rail thin with perky breasts or rear-ends. People are not all bike riding or sports fanatics, and without the sedentary people like the "computer geeks" we wouldn't have DU today.

Bottom line? Conformism sucks in a BIG way!