It sucks, but there are people who are hurting so much worse than me.
I count my own meager blessings every day, and people on DU - like femrap who has helped me out, or Howler, who has kept me cheered up.
One hates to admit to poverty, but people should know the truth about it. There are not enough jobs to go around and even when you find one, you can be so far behind it takes a while to catch up.
I'm glad you're doing better now
"History, I believe, furnishes no example of a priest-ridden people maintaining a free civil government. This marks the lowest grade of ignorance, of which their political as well as religious leaders will always avail themselves for their own purpose." --- Thomas Jefferson to Baron von Humboldt, 1813