Knowledge is power. And it's time for the balance of power in this thing to shift.

[Denninmi]

7. It boils down to two questions

1) Do I need confirmation and validation of my belief that what happened to me was a profound violation of my trust?

2) Is it even possible to get said confirmation.

3) Would the benefits of pursuing this outweigh the costs?

4) Am I strong enough to go through this?

Ok, actually 4 questions. What can I say, society views me as somehow defective, and therefore incapable of handling even simple tasks. I guess I'm too stupid and disturbed to have the basic skills set of a three year old.

For Christ's sake, they asked whether I could even do something as simple as change my underwear and take a shower? I guess they assume I am sitting around all day in the same boxers I put on 47 days ago, urinating upon myself while holding a revolver to my ear in one hand and using the other to decapitate a litter of puppies because the voices in my head tell me they are agents of Satan.

This system allows for absolutely no dignity, and it seems designed to break a man instead of help him. Why in the Hell don't they just throw me in a cattle car and ship me "to the East" and get it over with? This is what it feels like to me. Better short and brutal and done with than a prolonged death by a million little cuts.

I'm going to endanger myself again right now and go work out. I would put the sarcasm graphic here but I think it's brutally obvious and would be excess.