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Response to butdiduvote (Original post)

Wed Feb 1, 2017, 01:39 AM

22. My dear butdiduvote, I am wrecked and ruined. I have moments or maybe a few hours when

I'm not, but overall, I can't imagine that my psyche or inner self or whatever will ever be able to breathe again until this unending serious of smacks upside my head STOP. Just STOP.

Oh, I can get shit done, but most days I have to force myself to look away from this slo-mo catastrophe and run errands or go to the doc or whatever...but I have to really exert myself to accomplish even the most innocuous chore (which, I learned years ago, can be a symptom of deep grief: "The smallest tasks appear insurmountable".)

But I figured out a couple of weeks ago that the main reason I canNOT "look away" is because I by God have so many agonizing days/months/years invested in this "drama" that I have just GOT to be present at that moment, that glorious, sweet, savory moment when this motherfucker is GONE. However that may happen, I could care less, just disappear, just GO.

So listen, you're on DU here, and you may read of terrible things, but you will also read hilarious things and powerfully uplifting things as we all slog through this putrid swamp together...please do stay with this remarkable group!!

Also - my sister is a brilliant psychologist. And we speak rarely of her clients because - well, ethics and such! But many of her peeps were deeply, painfully traumatized when it came to pass that the new president of the United States was a sexual predator...I MEAN. And I'll bet you cash money they are still trying to come to terms with that knowledge on a daily basis, eh? - hey, any therapist/shrink who minimizes where you're at is bogus. 100%.

I am angry one moment, cross-eyed exhausted the next, then I'm on fire, then I'm homicidal, then I can't believe what just happened, then I am so deeply moved by the beauty and splendor that The People manifest, both here and across the planet...rinse, repeat, ad infinitum.

Dammit butdiduvote - I'll hang in if you will!! Peace, and welcome to DU -

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