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Future mad scientist. Currently in graduate school working on my PhD in infectious diseases.

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Heartbreakingly sad end to a young life , Leelah Alcorn. **Suicide trigger warning**

A 17-year-old transgender teen was struck and killed by a passing semi trailer on an Ohio interstate on Sunday, and a previously written suicide note later appeared on the teen’s Tumblr blog through scheduled publishing.....In the note, Leelah said she identified as a transgender female from age 14, when she first became aware of the term, having felt “like a girl trapped in a boy’s body” since she was four.

Leelah said she subsequently came out online, and turned primarily towards the internet for friendship. She said she attempted to convince her parents that she had to medically transition, but claims she instead received therapy and “biased” counseling from Christian therapists:


SUICIDE NOTE

If you are reading this, it means that I have committed suicide and obviously failed to delete this post from my queue.

Please don’t be sad, it’s for the better. The life I would’ve lived isn’t worth living in… because I’m transgender. I could go into detail explaining why I feel that way, but this note is probably going to be lengthy enough as it is. To put it simply, I feel like a girl trapped in a boy’s body, and I’ve felt that way ever since I was 4. I never knew there was a word for that feeling, nor was it possible for a boy to become a girl, so I never told anyone and I just continued to do traditionally “boyish” things to try to fit in.

When I was 14, I learned what transgender meant and cried of happiness. After 10 years of confusion I finally understood who I was. I immediately told my mom, and she reacted extremely negatively, telling me that it was a phase, that I would never truly be a girl, that God doesn’t make mistakes, that I am wrong. If you are reading this, parents, please don’t tell this to your kids. Even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don’t ever say that to someone, especially your kid. That won’t do anything but make them hate them self. That’s exactly what it did to me.

My mom started taking me to a therapist, but would only take me to christian therapists, (who were all very biased) so I never actually got the therapy I needed to cure me of my depression. I only got more christians telling me that I was selfish and wrong and that I should look to God for help.

When I was 16 I realized that my parents would never come around, and that I would have to wait until I was 18 to start any sort of transitioning treatment, which absolutely broke my heart. The longer you wait, the harder it is to transition. I felt hopeless, that I was just going to look like a man in drag for the rest of my life. On my 16th birthday, when I didn’t receive consent from my parents to start transitioning, I cried myself to sleep.

I formed a sort of a “fuck you” attitude towards my parents and came out as gay at school, thinking that maybe if I eased into coming out as trans it would be less of a shock. Although the reaction from my friends was positive, my parents were pissed. They felt like I was attacking their image, and that I was an embarrassment to them. They wanted me to be their perfect little straight christian boy, and that’s obviously not what I wanted.

So they took me out of public school, took away my laptop and phone, and forbid me of getting on any sort of social media, completely isolating me from my friends. This was probably the part of my life when I was the most depressed, and I’m surprised I didn’t kill myself. I was completely alone for 5 months. No friends, no support, no love. Just my parent’s disappointment and the cruelty of loneliness.

At the end of the school year, my parents finally came around and gave me my phone and let me back on social media. I was excited, I finally had my friends back. They were extremely excited to see me and talk to me, but only at first. Eventually they realized they didn’t actually give a shit about me, and I felt even lonelier than I did before. The only friends I thought I had only liked me because they saw me five times a week.

After a summer of having almost no friends plus the weight of having to think about college, save money for moving out, keep my grades up, go to church each week and feel like shit because everyone there is against everything I live for, I have decided I’ve had enough. I’m never going to transition successfully, even when I move out. I’m never going to be happy with the way I look or sound. I’m never going to have enough friends to satisfy me. I’m never going to have enough love to satisfy me. I’m never going to find a man who loves me. I’m never going to be happy. Either I live the rest of my life as a lonely man who wishes he were a woman or I live my life as a lonelier woman who hates herself. There’s no winning. There’s no way out. I’m sad enough already, I don’t need my life to get any worse. People say “it gets better” but that isn’t true in my case. It gets worse. Each day I get worse.

That’s the gist of it, that’s why I feel like killing myself. Sorry if that’s not a good enough reason for you, it’s good enough for me. As for my will, I want 100% of the things that I legally own to be sold and the money (plus my money in the bank) to be given to trans civil rights movements and support groups, I don’t give a shit which one. The only way I will rest in peace is if one day transgender people aren’t treated the way I was, they’re treated like humans, with valid feelings and human rights. Gender needs to be taught about in schools, the earlier the better. My death needs to mean something. My death needs to be counted in the number of transgender people who commit suicide this year. I want someone to look at that number and say “that’s fucked up” and fix it. Fix society. Please.

Goodbye,

(Leelah) Josh Alcorn



rest of article at link :

http://www.lgbtqnation.com/2014/12/transgender-teen-struck-and-killed-on-ohio-interstate-in-apparent-suicide/?utm_content=buffer45353&utm_medium=social&utm_source=facebook.com&utm_campaign=buffer

Please consider signing the petition at Change.org

https://www.change.org/p/barack-obama-harry-reid-nancy-pelosi-president-of-the-united-states-enact-leelah-s-law-to-ban-transgender-conversion-therapy



Posted by bench scientist | Wed Dec 31, 2014, 12:10 PM (5 replies)

Think Paul Broun was insane? Meet Jody Hice( R) nominee for US congress.

"In his seven years in Congress, Rep. Paul Broun (R-Ga.) distinguished himself by calling biology "lies straight from the pit of hell" and accusing President Barack Obama of establishing a secret national police force to push a Marxist dictatorship. But the man who may replace Broun in Washington could outdo him.

In a 2012 book, that candidate—pastor and talk radio host Jody Hice—alleges the gay community has a secret plot to recruit and sodomize children. In It's Now or Never: A Call to Reclaim America, Hice also asserts that supporters of abortion rights are worse than Hitler and compares gay relationships to bestiality and incest. He proposes that Muslims be stripped of their First Amendment rights.

On Tuesday, Hice clinched a spot in the runoff to replace Broun, who declined to run for re-election in order to run for Senate. Hice will face businessman Michael Collins in the July 22 runoff. In a district that gave 62 percent of the vote to Mitt Romney two years ago, Hice, the leading vote-getter in the first round of balloting, stands a good chance of being elected to Congress."

http://www.motherjones.com/politics/2014/05/jody-hice-georgia-sodomy

http://www.buzzfeed.com/andrewkaczynski/11-reasons-future-republican-rep-jody-hice-will-be-the-most

This guy is BATSHIT crazy!

**** Updated Hice won the Republican runoff and will face Ken Dious (D) in Nov for US Congressional GA District 10 .
Posted by bench scientist | Fri Jul 25, 2014, 11:19 AM (8 replies)

Hedwig and The Angry Itch is my favorite movie

anyone else seen it?
Posted by bench scientist | Thu Jan 16, 2014, 08:14 PM (3 replies)

Gov. Christie press conference in 24 secs

Posted by bench scientist | Thu Jan 9, 2014, 07:36 PM (1 replies)

Recall election process info page on NJ state website is down

Under recall election petition tab, click link on
http://nj.gov/state/elections/candidate-recall-election-process.html

and you get this error :

The page you have requested cannot be displayed because it does not exist,
has been moved, or the server has been instructed not to let you view it.




Want to bet Christie does not know about that either?
Posted by bench scientist | Wed Jan 8, 2014, 10:50 PM (14 replies)

US Rep. Jack Kingston Proposes That Poor Students Sweep Floors In Exchange For Lunch

Perennial asshat Jack Kingston wants poor kids to work for their lunch..

WASHINGTON -- Rep. Jack Kingston (R-Ga.) wants kids to learn early in life that there's no such thing as a free lunch. To make sure they absorb that lesson, he's proposing that low-income children do some manual labor in exchange for their subsidized meals.

On Saturday, Kingston, who is vying to be his party's nominee in Georgia's Senate race next year, spoke at a meeting of the Jackson County Republican Party about the federal school lunch program.

Under that program, children from families with incomes at or below 130 percent of the poverty line are eligible for free meals. Students from families with incomes between 130 percent and 185 percent of the poverty level can receive lunches at reduced prices.

But on Saturday, Kingston came out against free lunches, saying that children should have to pay at least a nominal amount or do some work like sweeping cafeteria floors.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/12/18/jack-kingston-school-lunch_n_4467711.html


This dipshit then doubles down on his remarks and states he never said "poor kids" and this was all the fault of "Democrats who he said planted a tracker to film his comments".


http://www.politico.com/story/2013/12/jack-kingston-school-lunch-quote-101377.html

He is running for US Senate Seat here, I hope he gets creamed.

Posted by bench scientist | Fri Dec 20, 2013, 08:43 PM (10 replies)

best tweet yet re: duck dynasty

Posted by bench scientist | Fri Dec 20, 2013, 08:29 PM (11 replies)

Alligator found in O'Hare airport in terminal # 3

Police whisked 2-foot long “Allie’’ the alligator into a box after it was spotted it under an escalator at O’Hare Airport Friday morning.

A maintenance worker made the bizarre discovery in the lowel level of Terminal 3, Chicago Police Department News Affairs Officer Hector Alfaro said. The unexpected trespasser was later transferred into the care of the Chicago Herpetological Society.

By Sunday, Allie, an American alligator about 3-years-old, was still “in distress ’’ from Friday’s incident and was suffering from a metabolic bone deficiency, which likely means its diet was poor and lacked calcium for some time before Allie was found, according to a spokesman for the Chicago Herpetological Society.


http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/local/breaking/chi-small-alligator-startles-officials-at-ohare-20131103,0,129357.story

Glad someone found this lil guy. Good luck lil dude.
Posted by bench scientist | Sun Nov 3, 2013, 08:11 PM (0 replies)

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Posted by bench scientist | Sun Nov 3, 2013, 05:44 AM (0 replies)

Protesters demonstrate outside Paul Broun's Athens office

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Signs stating “Don’t Cruzify America” and “End the Shut Down” greeted travelers on the Atlanta Highway by the Georgia Square Mall — the location of Rep. Paul Broun’s office — Friday afternoon as about 25 protesters waved their displeasure at the ongoing partial shutdown of the federal government...

http://onlineathens.com/local-news/2013-10-12/protestors-demonstrate-outside-paul-brouns-athens-office

I so want this dipshit to lose his U.S. Senate bid. I doubt we'll be able to win his House seat here with it's heavily gerrymandered district( thanks GA state Repubs), but just having him lose the Senate bid would be a change for the better.

Posted by bench scientist | Sat Oct 12, 2013, 01:49 AM (6 replies)
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