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Name: Johnathan
Gender: Male
Hometown: do I have a home?
Home country: USA
Current location: canon city co
Member since: Sun Aug 15, 2010, 04:05 PM
Number of posts: 582

About Me

As a 16 y.o. runaway from extreme peer bullying and parental neglect; specifically after being \"outed\" in a redneck town, it was one fat, boisterous idiot of a preacher who instrumented the lynch mob who literally \"ran me out of town\". This was precisely the hateful crap he was stirring that caused incidental mob mentality that I know nearly a whole certain town is horrified to look back upon. Fred Phelps himself was invited, and drove all the way there to head up this riot. It was like something out of a horror flick: invited to a \"party in my honor\", that was quickly revealed to be a hatefest, with Fred Phelps himself at the helm. From the moment I walked in the door he lit into an in-my-face spitting litany of my evils with family and community members teasing and touting \"praise cheezus\" all around. I left with a whole crowd chasing me down the street. I only stayed home long enough that evening to pack a backpack and head out, never to return. This was after many other pronounced anti-gay incidents that were escalating in severity. I\'ve spent my whole life attempting to live down that moment. If I could sue every one of the idiots who took part in that dipshit scenario I would not hesitate for one second. Odd conflict with me is, being very, very lucky to have run across a gay pedophile (if you will, he had more genuine humanitarian interest in getting me off the street than playing with my pee-pee) who sheltered, fed and street-schooled me till I was nearly 18. December 2009 I was doored off my bicycle in what was highly suspected as an anti-gay crime. Reason being I kept having drive by \"Faggot\" yelled at my home, then the same spray painted on it, within a couple months of this happening. I cannot identify my attackers. It came unexpectedly, so suddenly, and I was too dazed only to realized I was being repeatedly kicked in the head. It took a sort of hypnosis and drug enhanced therapy to recall what I could at a University PTSD study I participated in: but during that EMDR-like sessions I realized that I had been kicked in the head something on the order of 100 times by my attackers, I could smell strong whiskey and they were laughing and making homophobic comments. I\'m a radiologic technologist with over 20 years experience in CT and Xray. Unfortunately I have limitations to my physical ability to perform my chosen profession, due to pinched nerves in my neck. Insurance companies have rejected me for all plans. I have taken what Xray assignments I can. I\'m fortunate not to have lost most of my cognitive abilities, but I\'m not who I was before this occurence, by any long shot. I can no longer ride a bicycle or a motorcycle due to chronic dizziness. I\'ve had dozens of chronic ear infections since. My right eye still has a partially detached retina. I\'ve been opiate free for 6 months now, but still have some days I have trouble with old fractures. I am documented TBI case now basically multiple post concussive syndrome. I still want to work, and live much like I did before this happened but it is very difficult. I have difficulty sometimes forming sentences verbally in proper syntax, and have to go kind of slowly at this. I refuse to become dependent on SSDI though, because I still don\'t really have a home. I sold the house there in Arizona, still have some ranch property in Radiator Springs! But this fucked up all my plans for building a home there. Its still a campout. I\'ve finally paid off over 10,000 dollars worth of debt this attack caused me. State of Arizona refused me victims of crime compensation. (R) bastards. I\'m living on the edge of homelessness still. Only a few places have been understanding of my limitations, however, which are not severe, but ever present. I\'m hoping to go back to one of the best jobs I\'ve had, but things aren\'t as lucrative for rad techs as they were years ago. Albeit my past is bitter, has made some mediocrity seem sweet ever since.

Journal Archives

Possible New and Improved Republican Presidential Contender!

It's Martin Crane's chair, and I'd say it stands a great chance of winning the nomination. It's dusty, moldy and presents no new ideas. It blew up the DirtScourge 2000 in the attempt to clean up it's outlook, just as it wants to do to other countries rather than negotiate. It's worn out, patched up with duct tape but oh so comfortable to the bigoted they just can't let it go. It sits there silently in it's refusal to update it's affect, which beats the one's who open their mouths with their antediluvian edicts and overt to covert avariciousness. It won't buy into the ACA nor oppose it just to appease the radical base.
Best parts are, MC's chair won't vote itself a pay raise, won't lower the taxes only for the extraordinarily affluent, won't oppose good policies just because the opposition party proposed them, won't drag us into endless and pointless wars. It won't oppose equal rights for LGBT or women, won't blather about "legitimate rape", it will leave Roe vs. Wade well enough alone and won't pander to the crazy far right religious insistence for special powers above all others. It won't oppose unions and other fair labor practices, it won't object vehemently to raising the minimum wage, nor pander to Fox News and Rupert Murdoch's slant even when it's on all the time in front of it. It won't implement policies that are great for the privileged yet discourage upward mobility of the middle class and poor. It won't cut vital services or rip off the social security fund you've paid dearly into for your retirement disguised as "privatization".
It won't call fast food workers "of satan" (SP), It won't say "I like to fire people". It won't ask "Is our children learning" (GWB), nor state: "Facts are stupid things" nor "Trees cause more pollution than automobiles" (RR). It won't call the gulf oil spill an "act of god" (RP), or claim: Ill be long gone before some smart person ever figures out what happened inside this Oval Office. (GWB). (author take a moment to ponder that one and huff his inhaler) It won't assuredly state: "Carbon Dioxide (isn't) a harmful gas" (MB). It won't say: "The Great Flood is an example of climate change. And that certainly wasn't because mankind overdeveloped hydrocarbon energy." (JB) nor "It is not the role of the Congress to make college affordable and accessible." (VF). It will restore faith in government better than (RJ): "When I hear politicians talk about restoring faith in government . . . No, no, no, no, no. That is the wrong solution!" It won't make asinine false comparisons like: "Forty years ago, the United States Supreme Court sanctioned abortion on
demand. And we wonder why our culture sees school shootings so often."(KC). It won't make purely political, actual job-disregarding directives such as: "Everything we do in this body should be about messaging to win back the Senate. That's it." (PS) or "The single most important thing we want to achieve is for President Obama to be a one-term president." (MM). It won't say "We're not preaching austerity" (PR) while proposing the most austere budget proposal imaginable. It won't say "We've done our work" (JB) in defense of the most unproductive legislative session in the entire congressional history. It won't campaign on blindingly odd statements such as "The middle class. Since when in America do we have classes? That's Marxism talk." (RS), nor respond "Yes, I would" (JW) when asked if he would restore slavery in America.
Yes, Martin Crane's chair, in comparison to the gaffe-spouters would appear a pinnacle of intellect with it's mute discourse and demure demeanor. It was beloved by a lovable if old-fashioned and crotchety curmudgeon, despite it's plebian nature and assuredly unassuming decor. It's a good speculation it will have less face-palmingly ignorant gaffes than many of the candidates to come, and it won't mind or have you arrested if you spill beer or ketchup on it.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Thu Apr 23, 2015, 11:30 PM (0 replies)

"Bullets to the Head". "Christian" extremist's answer to gays.

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Posted by nightscanner59 | Thu Mar 12, 2015, 05:57 PM (13 replies)

The radical right wingers over the top now.

For a couple years now I've been placing progressive viewpoint on one of the RW stealth sites called SodaHead. The rhetoric there has very nearly degenerated into more and more Obama-hate, angry discourse festering into what I read today. There are RW'ers now eluding to suggestions of armed revolution due to totally wacked out ideas they've convinced themselves of. Some have come very, very close to making direct threats on the life and health of our commander in chief!!!
When I gain full internet again I'll post links. They've truly gone nuts in there and it bears watching, fellow DU'ers. For now I'll just snap out this link:
'Cause it won't take anyone long to find the crazy stuff they're posting there!
Posted by nightscanner59 | Sun Aug 24, 2014, 03:04 AM (6 replies)

Minor aggravating situation...

I just left the local dog park rather expediently due to a family with two pit bulls there. Nice calm pits, but right after the owner let the dog off the leash, he came to me and I petted his head. Then the dog turned around... and there was a clear cut case of ringworm, several perfectly round balding spots. Aaaaak.
I attempted to make a tactful comment to the owner only to a "no speekee english" response.
I proceeded right home, took Caleb and I directly to shower for a strong permethrin bath, shed my clothes right there and soaked them in the shower floor with the permethrin soap as well. I'll hit the car with Lysol later.
On the way home, though I stopped to call animal control. Actually the dispatcher first retorted to me something the order of "This is a veterinary situation sir, we take stray dog calls" (Grrr.) Upon mention of the highly contagious nature of ringworm, she said she'd send and officer right out.
Advice, comments welcome.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Sat Aug 23, 2014, 04:43 PM (8 replies)

Despite how far we've come we still live in the dark ages.

I read with heavy heart about yet another bakery refusing to serve a gay couple. I put the following on a poll site just a couple hours ago:
The flood of asinine homophobic BS in responses is already distressing.
I'm serious. If these bigots are going to hold their moral yardstick up to customers to serve them, they should have to warn everyone of their scruples.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Thu Aug 14, 2014, 09:19 PM (3 replies)

Albeit only remotely connected to my LGBT status, I"m finally glad to leave the midwest.

I've been on a 6 month inteventional mission to my elderly parents self destructive wind-down. Got the worst problem placed in nursing home care, set up home care and meals on wheels for mom. I also considered this sort of a depraved sabbatical for myself after severe injuries sustained in a brutal mugging just over 4 years ago.
But frankly even going to a "red" area of california for work now has desirability over this. Between the load of hateful bumperstickers sighted daily, and Fox Noose delusional Zombies driving hundreds of monster pickemuptrucks complete with smokestacks to ensure as much carbon pollutant effluent into yet still relatively pristine air to drive one fat ass and one bag of groceries 30 miles round to work... cough, cough,... as the "one man, one woman" bumpersticker cuts a stinky self righteous fart on my "Love conquers hate" equality flag.
There still, but never see the ratio of this beyond that california border. Ever.
Yet I leave here with the most disturbing thought. That the likes of my mom exist in this area where the media pounds in all kinds of "drive your fucking cars to hell, burn more fuel in the name of X oil company's "good deeds" *coughing more*" but look at all those terrible faggots wrecking our way of life!!!!" televised brainwashing that still has her 87 year old brain convinced it is still post-WWII, and the repugs will save us all from tyranny. No amount of reality will soak her delusional soul, evidence from practically every major university and reliable institute of higher learning, even albeit a product of one, The oceans radical change in pH, nothing soaks because the box has her convinced to vote for the likes of Newt fuckwad Gingrich or whatever red one runs. I assure you the televisionus mesmerizing rays do not enter my own home, haven't since RayGun totally deleveled that playground, and never will in the unwilling and pervasive fashion it bombards and sickens me with on nearly a daily basis when intervening with my mom's problems.
Yet it stirs so much anger at the Kock brothers, and other 1 percenter's efforts to cause this. The number of misinformed, delusional or downright militant hoardes are just palpable here in a way that disturbs my dreams. Tomorrow I leave it behind me in my rear view mirror. Hare Krishna, Hare Rama. Namaste.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Wed Feb 12, 2014, 08:59 AM (2 replies)

Finally, thanks to the ACA implementation, the ancillary medical job market is thriving again. BUT..

Shocked, I tells ya, shocked many of my patients would be to find out how much of my life has been spent by this caregiver sleeping on park benches as a student, and my car when the damn repugnants control our government offices and wrecks the job market.
I'm 54 years old now, and not able to physically handle these economic downswings upon which my travel job is dependent. Since this last period of unemployment, despite having a good financial resume until shortly after the GWB years, my health has suffered, I have no retirement funds or even a hope to be able to save up one again thanks to the long unemployment periods I've had between job assignments and still retire at the age of 64 I had planned on.
Thanks to my republican parents who are reaping now what they have sowed over the years for non-support of their gay son since 16 years of age since I ran away from them to survive on the streets, the financial fluctuations I've experienced for myself with the tide of economic conditions and employment availability, This last stretch of austerity I've had to live through has been a devastating one. I don't bounce back as easily as I did, health-wise or financially from scraping for every penny between jobs.
2016 is truly going to be a turning point for me should any REPUGlican control happen again. I cannot survive another period like the GWB years and after, period. I will give up my whole life's plan, sell my home and maybe move to Sao Paulo. I'm working on learning Portuguese just in case.
Sorry if sometimes I'm redundant in my thoughts here. Finally, I'm going back to work soon, and maybe able to get back on track. But with my life and retirement plans totally blown, no possibility now of recovering ability to retire at 64 as planned, still only now have an empty piece of property with no home on it thanx to this, I can't even think straight anymore. I certainly have learned a hard lesson, and most certainly will take whatever money I can save over the next couple years, revoke my U.S. citizenry, sell my home and move out of the U.S. should any republican control like the GWB years happen again.
Frankly, the more I look at Sao Paolo and other places along the Brazilian coast, nationalized heathcare for citizenry there...
Posted by nightscanner59 | Fri Jan 24, 2014, 10:13 AM (5 replies)

Coach Daubenmire whines christians are being bullied by not being allowed to bully

I site searched D.U. for Daubenmire, didn't turn this one up, so apologies if I am behind the times here.
But this one makes me want to just split my seams. I was a teenage runaway at 16 from a redneck town where bullying of the one known "faggot" (guess who!) made me choose life on the streets over being punched, shoved, kicked, degraded and treated like shit every day. No it did not make me tougher. The streets did, it just made me hungry when I couldn't dumpster dive for enough food.
I was major PTSD'd for years, and sort of still am, but have had some major therapy about past traumas that was very helpful.
I hope the video will work here, it keeps getting removed for copyright infringement. If not, just paste:
Dave Daubenmire bully
into You Tube and it will come right up.
Posted by nightscanner59 | Thu Nov 7, 2013, 08:11 PM (8 replies)

Fan-freekin-tastic Jon Stewart... love me some Jon!

Fan freekin tastic. Jon and Alan lay it on the line. No BS about the gov't pampering the investor class over workers, deregulation that began even before Glass-Steagal repeal, how it set us up for disaster, implication of how re-regulation must occur for U.S. to get out of peril. Highy recommended. Watch both clips. Jon may be a comedian in title, but an informed and accurate journalist as well. Hats off to Jon!

Let me try this again! I don't know what is wrong:

Posted by nightscanner59 | Tue Oct 22, 2013, 08:48 AM (3 replies)

Democrats.... more than meet the eye...

the Democrats... more than meets the eye...:
Democrats force their battles to destroy the evil wages of the DeceptiCans... (Note slight turn of original lyrics here)
the Democrats....
Peeling back their disguise
the Democrats... more than meets the eye...
Even though I was a little too old for this show this theme has run through my head since it first appeared :

UPDATE 9/22/12 This has turned into an animation project. Any good computer animators, camera buffs in the Mountain View, Ca area please reply
below if you have some weekend time before the election. I have camera, need tripod, lighting. Hired assistant will be paid 30 an hour.

OTW please respond to this poll:
Posted by nightscanner59 | Mon Sep 10, 2012, 01:32 PM (3 replies)
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