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Current location: So California
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Your post made me cry.

I was just 7 years old when I became aware of my own white privilege. My mother had died a few months earlier. From what I remember she was just wonderful - loving and kind to everyone. Even after leaving my father because of violent abuse she still never uttered a negative word about him to my sister or me.

My father was the polar opposite of my mom. A card carrying Bircher who hated my mother's Russian family, calling them commies, and pretty much hating everyone, it seemed, especially people of color.

Up until then I didn't understand much about the people he raged against in the most vulgar of terms. Having lived most of my life up until then in rural Connecticut the only people I really knew were my many family members - cousins, uncles, aunts, and classmates from the same area. Pretty much all lily white.

So after my mom died we ended up in California, alone and away from any family, in my father's care. There were so many sad, despondent, and sometimes terrifying days with him, I remember.

It was back to school time and he took us out to shop for new school clothes. I was a small, skinny, awkward little girl. Small enough to hide under the racks of hanging clothes. There was a little black girl doing the same. Disappearing under the clothes. We played and giggled under those racks. It was like finding a soul mate. I was shocked. All the things my dad had told me.... I never imagined a little girl just like me could be one of the monsters he had raged about.

So here's the rub - thinking I had misunderstood what he had been telling me, I pointed this out to my father. She was just like me. A skinny little girl, with dark skin, happily playing under the racks of clothes with me. Not a monster. Not threatening. Just an awkwardly skinny little girl like me.

I got into a lot of trouble for what I said to him. A lot. Ended up with a fat lip in the store. But all I could think was OMG, OMG, that poor little girl. She did nothing wrong. She was just like me and my father hated her. Others (he tried to convince me) hated her too because her skin was dark. I remember wondering why I was so lucky. Why she wasn't. My life changed that day. I can't even define it completely. But I learned that my father was wrong. So, so wrong.

My heart aches for your dear little girl. Please, hug her for me when you have the chance. Life is just so unfair.

I am shocked.

I hate the NRA and their bull shit. Domestic violence means nothing to them. It is unfathomable to me that these pigs would try to help abusers to get their hands on guns.

So what was the president's

‘Profanity-Laced’ Rant Against the Press? I don't care to watch. Since you already have watched it and found it to be "informative and interesting, and credible", would you please tell us what President Obama said?

It could be "interesting" (if not "informative" or "credible") to those of us who can't imagine our president "ranting".

Why are we back to dropping our spacecraft

into the ocean, Apollo style? Does anyone know?

ETA: Now, after a few days, I wanted to thank all of you, DUers. This has been an amazingly informative thread (exactly what I had hoped for, this being DU, and all).

I apologize for my lack of replies but I've been learning, and have nothing to improve the discussion. Except, of course, thank you.

K&R (nt)

Earthquake: checking in So Orange County.

I still feel like I'm rolling. Like it's still going on.

Well isn't that something.

Exellent choice, admins! Thank you!! He won't be missed by me.

You noticed that too?

Where have all the haters gone? Crickets today.

Proud gun owners.

Seems like every other post starts out with: "I'm a proud gun owner." I want to know what there is to be proud about? I've never understood this. I understand even less after yesterday's mass murder.

Would someone please tell me? What is it you gun owners are so damn proud of?

Damn it! I am so pissed off right now. Those babies were slaughtered. SLAUGHTERED! Their tiny bodies were riddled with bullets from an assault rifle. If I were a gun owner I would not be proud. Quite possibly ashamed. But definitely not proud.

I love our president!

Just sayin'.

I guess I should say how grateful I am to know President Obama will be our president for the next 4 years. I can't remember such a feeling of relief as when they called Ohio on Election night. I knew what that meant. Everything it meant. All of it - in a flash moment. But Rachel Maddow said it best:

That happened! That really happened. We are not going to have a Supreme Court that will overturn Roe versus Wade. There will be no more Antonin Scalias and Samuel Alitos added to this court. We`re not going to repeal health reform. Nobody is going to kill Medicare and make old people in this generation or any other generation fight it out on the open market to try to get themselves health insurance. We are not going to do that. We are not going to give a 20 percent tax cut to millionaires and billionaires and expect programs like food stamps and kids' health insurance to cover the cost of that tax cut. We`re not going to make you clear it with your boss if you want to get birth control under the insurance plan that you're on.We are not going to redefine rape. We are not going to amend the United States Constitution to stop gay people from getting married. We are not going to double Guantanamo. We are not eliminating the Department of Energy or the Department of Education or Housing at the federal level. We are not going to spend $2 trillion on the military that the military does not want. We are not scaling back on student loans because the country`s new plan is that you should borrow money from your parents. We are not vetoing the DREAM Act. We are not self-deporting. We are not letting Detroit go bankrupt. We are not starting a trade war with China on Inauguration Day in January. We are not going to have, as a president, a man who once led a mob of friends to run down a scared, gay kid, to hold him down and forcibly cut his hair off with a pair of scissors while that kid cried and screamed for help and there was no apology, not ever. We are not going to have a Secretary of State John Bolton. We are not bringing Dick Cheney back. We are not going to have a foreign policy shop stocked with architects of the Iraq war. We are not going to do it. We had the chance to do that if we wanted to do that, as a country. And we said no, last night, loudly.


That's my thankful - grateful list, right there.
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