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I want to tell you all something I learned from my top notched psychiatrist that I live to far away

from to go to anymore. After my brain was taken care of we would often talk and he would tell me things about medications and things that go on in the psychiatric world.

A couple things I learned from him.

Most psychiatrists are not psycho-pharmacologists meaning they are int intensively trained and are treating on the cutting edge of psychiatry. He has a test for patients to give to their doctor's posted on the internet, (he was on the net as soon as there was a net) if they dare, and it contains questions like, "would you ever prescribe a MAO inhibitor with a Tricyclic medication, Would you ever prescribe more than 80 mg of Prosac at a time?

And the answers were all yes and he said that the average psychiatrist would say, "NO", it is too dangerous.

I took an MAO inhibitor years ago before Prozac came out and you have to be on a special diet to take it. If you take certain foods you can have a very dangerous spike in your blood pressure and it could be deadly. But I was cheating and getting away with it and I told him. So his solution was to give me the antidote to carry around with me all the time. I doubt other doctors would think of such a thing. And it came in handy because I ate a swiss cheese sandwich once and all of a sudden my head was pounding and I knew I was having a reaction. But I remembered his directions: Bite down on one capsule and swallow the other and get to the hospital. When I got to the hospital my blood pressure was not that bad.

I'm saying this because since I have moved to Florida I have never had anything like the competent treatment he gave me and recently was a VICTIM of a young doctor that took over the large place I go to. (I don't even see a doctor now, I see a PA but mostly that is OK because I am stabilized and have been for years) She decided that every single patient in the place was to come off their benzodiazepines and use them on an "as needed basis" only.

I have been on benzodiazepines for 30 years! Withdrawals are horrific and they are very useful for a panic disorder which I have. I don't abuse them and I believe most people on them do not abuse them. But they are known as a pill that you can buy on the street and people do abuse them, (so of course every one of her patients MUST STOP THIS!)

So I created a ruckus and called after hours and bitched to the answering people and got the doctor to have a meeting with me and the PA, (who agreed with me that the doctor was being ridicules.) Well I think that young doctor felt like she had been through a heavy weight boxing match after we had done and she lost big time. I pulled out everything I had been taught, everything I learned over the years and my own personal experience. The end result is I am staying on my benzodiazepines and she can suck it. (and my PA who did not agree with her gave me a "thumbs up" when the doctor was not looking)

Also I wanted to make known that I know many people in the mental health field as patients. And one of the things I notice about them which I have also read is they stay in depression for years even while being treated. Usually a low grade depression that they just live with. And their doctors keep them on the same medications!!!! I think that is a travesty. That is like giving a cancer patient a drug that doesn't work and keeping them on it when there are other ones to try.

Not only do they put people on the wrong drugs and leave them there they often do not prescribe enough of the drug to see if it will work. I can't tell you how many patients I have spoken with who are still depressed but on less than the highest recommended dose of the anti-depressant they are on.

I'm not sure I should be posting this here but I think it is a good thing to know about the field of psychiatric treatment. I'll cross post it to the help forum

OK stupid question here. Why can't Obama just send drones or the military drop dirent bombs

on Assaud's house and all the things he owns. I mean is he in hiding? We killed BinLauden right?

Why is it so hard to kill a brutal dictator and what is wrong with it?

Oh good God read the faux news crawl here.

I don't even understand this enough to make a comment about it. I just thought it was worth the picture.

I'm sorry but I don't give a rat's furry ass if they tap my phones or whatthehelleverthefuck.

I don't like this gas shit one bit. I don't like it and this time it is different. And whoever wants to disagree with me fine - call me a traitor. Call me a damn republican if you want but I am scared.

And Patrick Henry and Benjamin Franklin did not live in the age of biotoxins.

Read this from a Navel officer I found on the net from James Holmes.

"Biological weapons? Less mass-destructive, but more insidious. Biological agents are living organisms that have a nasty habit of spreading from host to host. They're the gift that keeps on giving. Plus, symptoms take time to manifest. Pestilence may have spread before anyone's aware an attack has occurred. Think the Black Death in medieval Europe and you get the idea. Detecting an attack, determining that it is an attack, and figuring out how to respond defies the medical expertise of crews on the scene."


Or we could just burn to death from the inside out from radiation or like the poor Syrians get our nervous systems shorted the fuck out, just like a blackout shuts down entire blocks of houses during a rain storm or, like this officer just said, we could all catch the flu that kills us. The fucking flu that has no cure.

So right now I'd rather sit on a fire ant hill with molasses on my ass than fight the government from getting every bit of information it needs to keep that bitten up ass safe. Because I want to live a long life and die in my 80's from cancer like the rest of my family.

I'll be damned if I tell people I had a "slip" but I think I need to go to a meeting.

I hate all this time shit and that was one of the reasons I quit AA in the first place.

But I have been drinking like a fucking normal person for months except for now it is 7:30 in the fucking morning and that bottle of wine is calling me from the fucking refrigerator. The most I have drank in a day is 3 glasses of wine. But I do notice that I want more than one now after buying it, (first I would only have one drink if I was at a restaurant)

I was sober and in AA for fucking 30 years! That is enough to drive a person out of their mind. The constant "we're all sick" shit was making me sick! So I stopped going about 5 years ago.

I still hate AA but I know I need to go to a meeting and I just texted my friend about it. The thought that this shit could creep up on me is disgusting. I do think that if I had been practicing my spiritual self more that this would have never happened and it will probably go away once I get into a good meditation practice again.

And I take my fucking medicine the way I am supposed to. Because I just took a Klonopin and the craving is gone now. And don't tell me that Klonopin is just alcohol in a pill form because I have been taking it or another benzo for 35 years, I have panic disorder and bipolar disorder and OCD and God damned PTSD.

I've also been manic for the last several weeks which could explain a lot. (and explain this post......I fucking know!!!!!) There is just not enough medicine in the world to keep me down.

OK I am lying. I will take that fucking Saphris that I hate so much

OK I took it. Now I will probably end up going to sleep and I don't want to.

Thank you for letting me post in this fucking forum.

Maybe if I just took my damn medicine I wouldn't be in this situation. I fucking hate bipolar disease also. I have a criminal record from being bare assed sober from it. And my doctor told me a long time ago that if they got my moods straightened out I would not drink like an alcoholic. And my mood has not been straight in weeks.

I hate everyone.

A crochet Amigurumi prosperity doll to bring you money!

I have always believed that what you believe will come true for you, pretty much. I have a few Buddhas around my house in auspicious places, (money centers). And I have one of my own Prosperity Dolls sitting on top of my TV so I see him/her all the time.

He reminds me that I am prosperous and to be grateful.


Please take a look. I have a few of them. Each one comes with a lucky Chinese Coin in a little purse that can be put in and taken out.

America's worst charities.


Rank Charity name Total raised by solicitors Paid to solicitors % spent on direct cash aid
1 Kids Wish Network $127.8 million $109.8 million 2.5%
2 Cancer Fund of America $98.0 million $80.4 million 0.9%
3 Children's Wish Foundation International $96.8 million $63.6 million 10.8%
4 American Breast Cancer Foundation $80.8 million $59.8 million 5.3%
5 Firefighters Charitable Foundation $63.8 million $54.7 million 8.4%
6 Breast Cancer Relief Foundation $63.9 million $44.8 million 2.2%
7 International Union of Police Associations, AFL-CIO $57.2 million $41.4 million 0.5%
8 National Veterans Service Fund $70.2 million $36.9 million 7.8%
9 American Association of State Troopers $45.0 million $36.0 million 8.6%
10 Children's Cancer Fund of America $37.5 million $29.2 million 5.3%
11 Children's Cancer Recovery Foundation $34.7 million $27.6 million 0.6%
12 Youth Development Fund $29.7 million $24.5 million 0.8%
13 Committee For Missing Children $26.9 million $23.8 million 0.8%
14 Association for Firefighters and Paramedics $23.2 million $20.8 million 3.1%
15 Project Cure (Bradenton, FL) $51.5 million $20.4 million 0.0%
16 National Caregiving Foundation $22.3 million $18.1 million 3.5%
17 Operation Lookout National Center for Missing Youth $19.6 million $16.1 million 0.0%
18 United States Deputy Sheriffs' Association $23.1 million $15.9 million 0.6%
19 Vietnow National Headquarters $18.1 million $15.9 million 2.9%
20 Police Protective Fund $34.9 million $14.8 million 0.8%
21 National Cancer Coalition $41.5 million $14.0 million 1.1%
22 Woman To Woman Breast Cancer Foundation $14.5 million $13.7 million 0.4%
23 American Foundation For Disabled Children $16.4 million $13.4 million 0.8%
24 The Veterans Fund $15.7 million $12.9 million 2.3%
25 Heart Support of America $33.0 million $11.0 million 3.4%
26 Veterans Assistance Foundation $12.2 million $11.0 million 10.5%
27 Children's Charity Fund $14.3 million $10.5 million 2.3%
28 Wishing Well Foundation USA $12.4 million $9.8 million 4.6%
29 Defeat Diabetes Foundation $13.8 million $8.3 million 0.1%
30 Disabled Police Officers of America Inc. $10.3 million $8.1 million 2.5%
31 National Police Defense Foundation $9.9 million $7.8 million 5.8%
32 American Association of the Deaf & Blind $10.3 million $7.8 million 0.1%
33 Reserve Police Officers Association $8.7 million $7.7 million 1.1%
34 Optimal Medical Foundation $7.9 million $7.6 million 1.0%
35 Disabled Police and Sheriffs Foundation $9.0 million $7.6 million 1.0%
36 Disabled Police Officers Counseling Center $8.2 million $6.9 million 0.1%
37 Children's Leukemia Research Association $9.8 million $6.8 million 11.1%
38 United Breast Cancer Foundation $11.6 million $6.6 million 6.3%
39 Shiloh International Ministries $8.0 million $6.2 million 1.3%
40 Circle of Friends For American Veterans $7.8 million $5.7 million 6.5%
41 Find the Children $7.6 million $5.0 million 5.7%
42 Survivors and Victims Empowered $7.7 million $4.8 million 0.0%
43 Firefighters Assistance Fund $5.6 million $4.6 million 3.2%
44 Caring for Our Children Foundation $4.7 million $4.1 million 1.6%
45 National Narcotic Officers Associations Coalition $4.8 million $4.0 million 0.0%
46 American Foundation for Children With AIDS $5.2 million $3.0 million 0.0%
47 Our American Veterans $2.6 million $2.3 million 2.3%
48 Roger Wyburn-Mason & Jack M Blount Foundation For Eradication of Rheumatoid Disease $8.4 million $1.8 million 0.0%
49 Firefighters Burn Fund $2.0 million $1.7 million 1.5%
50 Hope Cancer Fund $1.9 million $1.6 million 0.5%

The real reason republicons want to repeal Obamacare. How awful.

"Republicans have feared not that health care reform would fail the American people, but that it would succeed. Along with Social Security and Medicare, successful health care reform would provide the third and final pillar of Americans' social safety net, all brought you by the Democratic Party. To put it another way, the GOP was never really concerned about a "government takeover of health care", "rationing", "the doctor-patient relationship" or mythical "death panels," but that an American public grateful for access to health care could provide Democrats with an enduring majority for years to come.

But what Utah Senator Orrin Hatch called a "holy war" to block health care reform didn't start when Barack Obama took the oath of office in January 2009, but instead when Bill Clinton was inaugurated in 1993. It was then that former Quayle chief of staff and Republican strategist William Kristol warned his GOP allies that a Clinton victory on health care could guarantee Democratic majorities for the foreseeable future. "The Clinton proposal is also a serious political threat to the Republican Party," Kristol wrote in his infamous December 3, 1993 memo titled "Defeating President Clinton's Health Care Proposal," adding:

"Its passage in the short run will do nothing to hurt (and everything to help) Democratic electoral prospects in 1996. But the long-term political effects of a successful Clinton health care bill will be even worse--much worse. It will relegitimize middle-class dependence for 'security' on government spending and regulation. It will revive the reputation of the party that spends and regulates, the Democrats, as the generous protector of middle-class interests. And it will at the same time strike a punishing blow against Republican claims to defend the middle class by restraining government."

"The first step in that process must be the unqualified political defeat of the Clinton health care proposal. Its rejection by Congress and the public would be a monumental setback for the president; and an incontestable piece of evidence that Democratic welfare-state liberalism remains firmly in retreat."


Under Obama, we’re off to our best Private-Sector Job Growth since 1999 - Inform the republicans and

some on this site.


Here’s a fact most Republicans won’t want to hear—yet they can’t dispute (just ask Politifact): In the first half of 2013, we’re off to our best private-sector job growth since 1999.

Which is funny, considering all Republicans have told Americans since Obama became President was how awful he’s been for jobs. But then again, as I’ve said plenty of times, “fact” and “Republican” aren’t two words that often go together.

And despite the fact we’ve had this 14-year high in job growth for the first half of the year, Republicans continue to perpetuate this myth that President Obama has been terrible for job growth and “Obamacare” is a “jobs destroyer.”

Child porn bust takes off 1/2 of TOR's hidden sites offline


A man in Ireland believed to be behind Freedom Hosting, the biggest service provider for sites on the encrypted Tor network, is awaiting extradition on child pornography charges, reports The Independent. Denied bail until there is a ruling on the extradition request, Eric Eoin Marques has been described by an FBI special agent as "the largest facilitator of child porn on the planet," and faces up to 30 years in prison if tried in the US.

The Tor (short for "the onion router") network is designed to anonymize traffic, with a layered structure by which users re-route each other's requests through a web of computers multiple times, obfuscating the identity of the sender and receiver. Numerous reports claim that Freedom Hosting users were targeted using a JavaScript exploit of vulnerabilities in the Tor Browser Bundle, a self-contained open source web browser built from Mozilla’s Firefox that makes it easy for ordinary users to access the Tor network. With a user's browser compromised it would be possible to make the affected computer request a webpage outside of the Tor network, reporting its non-Tor IP address in what’s known as a "correlation attack" — in this case, sending requests to a Verizon IP address, according to The Daily Dot. It’s believed that by compromising Freedom Hosting, the attackers have knocked out half of Tor’s hidden services — websites and other services like email (Tormail) that are only accessible over the Tor network.

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