I somehow managed to not hear or see the news today.
Without looking at a clock at all, I had a feeling of zen, turned around to notice that it was 11:11, shortly thereafter back to regular...which in light of the time frame of events, I don't understand...but I noticed later, still ignorant of the day's tragic events that there was a draining feeling to my system. I felt a numbness. Like I've already absorbed the news and my filtering is off kilter. It's almost like I was spared..I don't know why. A weird and horrible distance.
that something is about to "break" on a huge scale? I've had that happen before, but I attribute it purely to randomness for myself. Maybe others and you sense more before hearing about it.
After 911, even far away, I felt "haunted" (not personally) by the suddenly and tragically released souls, as if they were still present, looking for answers and peace. That was followed by the heaviness of grief.
Right now I feel like the world's heart is broken.