You've had a remarkable education and career even so and I really believe it's made you who you are. I hope someday you'll reap your righteous financial rewards. You have more than a few good books in you, and I don't mean those written by others. It's hard to get published too unless you know the 'right' people. Doesn't mean you shouldn't try though. Look at Eric Hoffer, one of my heroes, who worked as a longshoreman and never got to finish college at all. But he had plenty to say and wound up with a Pulitzer prize in literature. Anyone with your wide range of experiences has just as much to share with the world, and we'd all be the better for it. At least don't let this crazy world define you.