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Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:09 PM

10 years! I have not done any illegal / illicit drugs for 10 years now.

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I don't go to N.A. meetings, but I just felt like announcing it here!

I had a slight problem with cocaine... regardless of how comparatively big or small my cocaine use was, it was too big of a problem for me for me to cope with, and I knew it was unhealthy. I had experimented with LSD a few times, and smoked marijuana socially, but I had no desire at all to abuse those substances. Cocaine was only drug that was irresistible.

10 years ago to this day, a person very, very close to me died of an accidental drug overdose. He was a young man, extremely popular, who had a good job, a wife, everything going for him. It broke my heart.

Everyone grieved, but yet even so, a couple of his dear friends did drugs at his funeral. It was disgusting. I was quietly offended, and I knew I wanted no part of it anymore!
I didn't lose any friends, but people stopped calling me. They still liked me, but they didn't seek out my company anymore. So yes, I lost friends.

But it was worth it! I'm not an "easily addicted person" so after that event it wasn't hard for me to resist cocaine, either. And for that I am very thankful.

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Reply 10 years! I have not done any illegal / illicit drugs for 10 years now. (Original post)
Quantess Dec 2012 OP
Skittles Dec 2012 #1
Quantess Dec 2012 #11
oldhippydude Dec 2012 #2
Quantess Dec 2012 #5
IDoMath Dec 2012 #3
Quantess Dec 2012 #9
proud2BlibKansan Dec 2012 #4
Quantess Dec 2012 #6
proud2BlibKansan Dec 2012 #10
Quantess Dec 2012 #14
Poll_Blind Dec 2012 #7
Quantess Dec 2012 #15
Walk away Dec 2012 #8
Quantess Dec 2012 #17
freshwest Dec 2012 #12
Quantess Dec 2012 #20
graywarrior Dec 2012 #13
Quantess Dec 2012 #21
no_hypocrisy Dec 2012 #16
Quantess Dec 2012 #23
grantcart Dec 2012 #18
Quantess Dec 2012 #24
salinen Dec 2012 #19
Quantess Dec 2012 #26
bluesbassman Dec 2012 #22
Quantess Dec 2012 #28
octoberlib Dec 2012 #25
Quantess Dec 2012 #34
brewens Dec 2012 #27
Quantess Dec 2012 #32
Lasher Dec 2012 #29
Quantess Dec 2012 #33
meow2u3 Dec 2012 #30
Quantess Dec 2012 #36
cantbeserious Dec 2012 #31
Iggo Dec 2012 #35
jschurchin Dec 2012 #37
RetroLounge Dec 2012 #38
Arkansas Granny Dec 2012 #39
LibGranny Dec 2012 #40
Skip Intro Dec 2012 #41
JDPriestly Dec 2012 #42
riverbendviewgal Dec 2012 #43
arthritisR_US Dec 2012 #44
Dont call me Shirley Dec 2012 #45
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Berlin Expat Dec 2012 #54
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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:13 PM

1. SO PROUD OF YOU QUANTESS!

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Response to Skittles (Reply #1)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:33 PM

11. Thank you!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:14 PM

2. a day at a time works.. a decade is a big deal.. congrats!! n/t

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Response to oldhippydude (Reply #2)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:24 PM

5. It's a milestone.

It actually was not difficult. I knew deep down in my heart I did not want any part of it.

I have a "sure, why not" attitude, but luckily I do not have an addictive personality. My heart goes out to those who really struggle with addiction.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:21 PM

3. Congratulations!

 

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Response to IDoMath (Reply #3)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:27 PM

9. Thanks! (n / t)

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:23 PM

4. A friend of my son's died just today

Meth user.

Very sad. And on Christmas Eve.

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Response to proud2BlibKansan (Reply #4)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:26 PM

6. I am so, so, terribly sorry.

It hurts really badly to lose a young person to drugs.

(edit punctuation)

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Response to Quantess (Reply #6)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:31 PM

10. It does. We've lost several.

But as your post so eloquently states - these deaths are lessons for the rest of us.

Congratulations and Merry Christmas.

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Response to proud2BlibKansan (Reply #10)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:36 PM

14. He died

combining cocaine and heroin. He was all alone, sadly, so there was no one there to call for an ambulance.

Merry Christmas to you too!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:26 PM

7. It is a very dear gift you give yourself, this season. And, in doing so, a gift to others.



We are all in this, together.

PB

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Response to Poll_Blind (Reply #7)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:40 PM

15. I really hope so!

I would love it if I inspired others! I really would.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:26 PM

8. Congrats on your 10 year anni! There's nothing like a successful Quit!

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Response to Walk away (Reply #8)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:42 PM

17. Thank you! It feels great!! (no text)

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:34 PM

12. Congratulations, Quantess. I've lost several very close people to addictions. Glad that you were...

able to return to your true self.

Happy Holidays.


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Response to freshwest (Reply #12)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:56 PM

20. It really sucks, doesn't it!

Friends of mine have died from heroin. Only a couple have been close friends, but those deaths hit hard! A punch in the gut.

Happy Holidays!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:35 PM

13. Congratulations!

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Response to graywarrior (Reply #13)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:04 PM

21. Thank you!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:40 PM

16. Very cool!

Don't know you but I'm proud of you.

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Response to no_hypocrisy (Reply #16)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:05 PM

23. Thank you!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:46 PM

18. good for you

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Response to grantcart (Reply #18)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:05 PM

24. Thank you!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 08:49 PM

19. I had a little problem too

 

One day I went to the bar where everyone hung out and did lines and sold and bought. This day was different. Nobody had any. People didn't say hello, how are you, they said, "ya holdin" and if you said no, they'd leave without even saying goodbye.

That's what did it for me.

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Response to salinen (Reply #19)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:14 PM

26. You can find better friends!

You really can.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:05 PM

22. That's tremendous Quantess! It's been over twenty for me.

One of my closest friends OD'd when we were thirty. He was one of the best of us, but his addiction was too strong. I still miss him every day.

So glad you were able to put it aside.

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Response to bluesbassman (Reply #22)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:36 PM

28. It's sickening.

We lose so many talented people to drugs. Okay, so it's mostly to heroin... heroin combined with cocaine and alcohol is deadly, as was in my dearest person's case.

I am so sorry about your friend OD' ing. It really hurts!

Thank you for your support!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:06 PM

25. Congratulations!

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Response to octoberlib (Reply #25)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:53 PM

34. Thanks! (n / t)

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:16 PM

27. Good going. Reminds me of me in the 80's. Once I got away from it, I didn't

miss it. It was such a pain in the ass to keep getting. Then there is the effect of never really being satisfied or comfortable anywhere. It's not long before you need another bump. Before is started messing around with coke, I'd be perfectly happy hanging out and drinking for hours.

My coke use was a joke compared to many others I know. Still, over a year and a half, 50 to 100 bucks a week was more than I had any business blowing on it.

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Response to brewens (Reply #27)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:48 PM

32. Same here.

With cocaine, you're never satisfied. I've had my entire face numbed, but there is always the need for more, eventually. Once the initial high wears off.

There's just no way that that is conducive to a healthy lifestyle.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:43 PM

29. You are a fine example for those who say they can't quit.

Maybe you'll give them hope and determination.

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Response to Lasher (Reply #29)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:51 PM

33. I don't have the classic "addictive personality", though.

Something I am extremely thankful for.

Happy Holidays & Merry Christmas!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:44 PM

30. Happy Cleaniversary!

Keep up the good work, and merry Christmas.

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Response to meow2u3 (Reply #30)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:57 PM

36. Thanks!

Merry Christmas to you, too!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:48 PM

31. Congratulations - Well Done

eom

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 09:56 PM

35. Congratulations on ten years!!!!

I know egg-ZACK-lee how hard that is.

Good job!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:01 PM

37. +100000000000

Congratulations keep it up. Merry Christmas!!!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:05 PM

38. Congrats!

"There's no happy ending to cocaine. You either die, you go to jail, or else you run out." - Sam Kinison



RL

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:14 PM

39. Congratulations! That's something to be proud of.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:22 PM

40. Don't know you - but WAY TO GO!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:34 PM

41. Coke is the only one I ever wanted to keep doing throughout the night.

Always asking, "is there more."

I never got to the point of needing to have it on a regular basis, but when it did have it, like going in on some with a friend, I couldn't stop until it was all gone.

I wonder if I felt the same way about sugar as a kid at one time.

I enjoyed acid, sometimes. I enjoyed mescaline most times. I really enjoyed ecstasy the first time I did it.

Haven't done any of those in a loooong time. Didn't make a conscious decision to quit, things just kinda fell that way, and I wouldn't know where to find any of them now even if I wanted to go another round.

But I liked the psychedelics. They really were like taking a trip. I'm still intrigued by the idea that they may open doors of perception, giving access to realities that are normally closed to us. The idea sparks my sense of adventure.

Now I smoke occasionally, drink a few beers a night, and sometimes tie one on. But like you, the hard drugs have faded away.

On your losing friends, you gotta wonder what kinda friends they really were. Maybe they were real friends who didn't get off the ride when you did, and were more under the power of the drugs. Cocaine is a hell of a drug. But I'm thinking at some point it all became about who wanted to ride that ride with them, and when you didn't, you kinda fell out of their lives because their lives had become all about that ride.

And I'm sorry to hear about your friend who fell victim to it.

Didn't mean to write a novel there.

Congrats on overcoming something that traps many.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:35 PM

42. Good job!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Mon Dec 24, 2012, 10:40 PM

43. congratulations

you did it!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 01:44 AM

44. Merry Christmas my friend!

10 years is huge!! I too am very thankful for you

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 04:02 PM

45. Congratulations!

Me, 10 years alcohol & tobacco free!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 04:33 PM

46. so happy for you!

i'm not an addictive personality, either, and I have lost friends in a somewhat similar manner. it told me that they weren't the friends I needed, or that I thought they were.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 04:43 PM

47. *hugs*

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 04:46 PM

48. Cocaine is evil.

My ex-husband had a pretty substantial crack addiction. As the sober one in the family I really suffered, as did my bank account. He used to come home in the middle of the night and drag me out to the ATM to get him more money. He was mean when he was like that, so I had to go along with it. It wasn't a good time...I'm so glad I'm out of that situation. I think he's slowed down now, but I don't have anything to do with him.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 04:47 PM

49. Your personal triumph should be shared...

You'll never know who you touched with that.

This made me think to my 40th HS reunion last year. In preparing to attend it, went through the online registry. A lot of them were people I knew who I'm sure was like your personal friend. I recall how I danced with this trap at a young age.

When I met up with them, I saw some things, not illegal, but certainly addictive that seem to have turned lots of my classmates into unhealthy people. It either slowly kills you and those around you (by being so unhealthy) or drives you off a cliff a la James Dean.

I guess what I'm saying is that we deal with it every day, so good for you, cause I think a lot of us are easily addicted!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 06:03 PM

50. Your post actually brought tears.....

of happiness for you and sadness that my best friend "went out" and used, killing her.

This will be the 7th Christmas without her -- she loved Christmas. I was the one who got her into NA -- she came to me when she hit bottom. I bought her a train ticket when she called, needing her best friend (we lived in different states), and she came to me, staying with me for a while and going with me to her first NA meeting after I tracked down a local one. I've never been a substance abuser -- I was a mental health professional and could empathize, help her in all kinds of ways, but I didn't have that substance abuse shared-history and different kind of support that NA subsequently gave her. We hit the best possible meeting for her -- it struck her just in the right place, and she went home and became very involved in her local NA group.

Sadly, it just took that one time (that we know of). It turned out that her heart was severely damaged from years of substance abuse and gave out after that one last time.

Your 10 years are certainly worth celebrating & sharing! Congratulations to you -- staying with substance abuse is a deadly path....literally.





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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 06:18 PM

51. congratulations

peace and low stress

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 06:38 PM

52. 10 years of sobriety is something to be proud of!

 

Congrats!

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 06:51 PM

53. Congratulations!

Cocaine is a devastating habit. I know you know but I want to emphasize what you did is nothing less dramatic than saving your life.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 07:29 PM

54. Congratulations

on ten years. Indeed, a major milestone.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 07:34 PM

55. Congratulations.

Drug addiction is one of the biggest problems we face as a nation, in my opinion.

Many people don't realize how prevalent it is, and how devastating.

A lot of people never get past it. Good for you for doing so.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 08:31 PM

56. Heart felt congratulations.

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Response to Quantess (Original post)

Tue Dec 25, 2012, 09:31 PM

57. You go, Quantess!

Sorry, hit enter before I got to the text...

As someone who is soon to celebrate 30 years of sobriety, I can with full confidence say:

YOU ROCK!

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